Wednesday, May 25, 2011


Well, here I am now.. after days didn’t update my blog.. ahaa… anybody misses me? (guess no one..)
            Actually, I wanted to talk about me, my, mine, and myself (WHAT-SO-EVER!!)
Its about my D.R.E.A.M.. since young, I wanted to be a doctor as I love to see inner part of human body. HELL YEAH!!! Especially when it comes into surgery.. WHOAA!! That’s totally kewl!! And adventurous!! (for me).. most of the channel I tuned to when the ‘magic box’ a.k.a TV in front of me, is @^#%#%&$&%.. ahahhaa!! Well, honestly I forgot the channel is, since its been half a year I left home.. (emm yes,, I dun watch TV in hostel.. even I do, it don’t have ASTRO..LAME!!).. back to old ones,, one day my friend got injury.. gaaah!! Spooky dowh!! The blood .. (EEPP!! Lemme explain 1st the injury before proceed to the blood thingy.. ~ he cut his finger off.. accidently of course!) was so dark.. RED DARK.. eeewwwhh!! Then I realise that im afraid of blood actually. So, as I determined to be a doctor (which the basic for sure is not afraid of blood and pain..) I teach myself of not afraid of it.. then I did it! Cz in the other time I witness bad injury, I managed to watch it closer.. HOHOHOHOO!! Once again (actually, that’s the first one..).. I Won over myself..
Then, my friend gave me a vid which totally scary as there have many accidents and serious injuries.. broken bones, cut head off, and many more! Then I was about to train myself of not afraid of it.. before I did it, suddenly (when I was in matriculation.. I was grown up already!!) I got teacher training offer.. (damn! Being a teacher was never my plan!) .. I was hoping I don’t have to go.. BUT.. BUT.. BUT.. (there’s always be BUT!!) my father was asking (not begging, nor forcing) me to go for the offer.. hhmm.. what to do.. my heart broke into pieces.. I have to fulfill his dream instead of mine since all these years im studying to gain success just for them, and they(my parents) deserve to get what they want from me.. so I just follow his words..
I was trying to chill myself on that time by thinking of “I don’t have to train myself to be brave of facing the extreme spooky thingy..” yeahh,.. that’s the bright side actually,.. but leaving my very own dream was a big disaster and really set me down.. trying to chill myself?? DOESN’T WORK OUT!
 On the last night before leaving matrix, my bestieys,, Cherry and Steph asked me our for dinner (at cafĂ©!).. then I cried out my sadness to them.. then Cherry said , ‘u will be there for something.. you got the offer for something..because it is the power of something’ .. she said that phrase was said to her when she got matrix instead of JPA.. yeaahh. The power of something.. I still hold that words till now.. im still looking for the ‘something’ .. during im looking for it, I’ve gained much ‘life’.. all the bitter sweet in life.. guess that is the ‘something’ that was waiting for me all these time.. time to time, I fell in love to this institute (teacher training) and to  this carrier (not so strong enough, but I still have the feeling of love over it..).. so, thanks to cherry for her words.. and still, im looking forward(more) for the ‘something’..

Friday, May 20, 2011

JOKES! (ahahahahhaaaa!!!) ~eemm... =.=''

There are 3 guys that are stuck on a cliff. God has gave them each one wish, so they can escape the cliff. But god says that in order for them to get their wish they have to run and jump off the cliff. So the first guy gets a running start and then jumps and says " I wish i could be an eagle!" He goes flying. The second guy runs and jumps and wishes to be an airplane, he goes flying. Then finally the last guy goes, he gets a running start and trips," SHIT!"

Please Pass The Mayo
A kid came home from school and asked his dad, "Dad, I heard some kids talking about a thing called a vagina. What is a vagina, and what does it look like?"
"Well, son, before sex it looks like a beautiful unopened rose."
"Wow, what does it look like after sex?"
"Well, son, have you ever seen a bulldog eating mayonaise?"

Last Request
Cannibals capture three men. The men are told that they will be skinned and eaten and then their skin will be used to make canoes. Then they are each given a final request. The first man asks to be killed
as quickly and painlessly as possible. His request is granted, and they poison him. The second man asks for paper and a pen so that he can write a farewell letter to his family. This request is granted,
and after he writes his letter, they kill him saving his skin for their canoes. Now it is the third man's turn. He asks for a fork. The cannibals are confused, but it is his final request, so they give
him a fork. As soon as he has the fork he begins stabbing himself all over and shouts, "To hell with your canoes!" 

A fireman is at the station house working outside on the fire truck when he notices a little girl next door. The little girl is in a little red wagon with little ladders hung off the side.
She is wearing a fireman's hat and has the wagon tied to a dog. The fireman says "Hey little girl. What are you doing?" The little girl says "I'm pretending to be a fireman and this is my fire truck!"

The fireman walks over to take a closer look. "Little girl that sure is a nice fire truck!" the fireman says. "Thanks mister", says the little girl. The fireman looks a little closer and notices the little
girl has tied the dog to the wagon by it's testicles.
"Little girl", says the fireman, "I don't want to tell you how to run your fire truck, but if you were to tie that rope around the dog's neck I think you could go faster."
The little girl says, "You're probably right mister, but then I wouldn't have a siren!"

Two hunters in the woods
There were two hunters in the woods. All of the sudden one of them trips on a tree stump. The other guy bent down and checked what was wrong with him, he saw that he wasn't breathing so he dailed 9-1-1 on his phone,
* Operator-This is 9-1-1 how can I help you?
* Hunter-Yes, my friend tripped over a tree stump.
* Operator-O.K. but make sher if he is died or not.
* after a while she hears a gun shot
* Hunter- O.K. now what .. LOL!

Wednesday, May 18, 2011


hmmm... (my INTRO mode ~ SAD..)

here i wanted to tell a story.. i have a friend.. a very close one.. VERY.. VERY.. CLOSE ONE!! we used to texting, almost everyday... it's been 3 years and do U know what is amazing in our friendship??? we never quarrel between one another.. NEVER! thats why i know we are 'ABNORMAL' but suit to each other.. hahahaa.. (not sincerely laughing..)

well, this friend of mine is a boy.. for sure, people would think sth other than being just friend. but who cares?? only we know our own condition.. there's a lot of stories in my life we used to share and can be said, he knows me better than my own BF.. he really2 understands me.. he used to advice me whenever i need, he used to accompany me whenever i wanted. he claimed himself as my GUARDIAN. OK then,.. its fine.. he even made a book for us..

lately, i make him like my very own big brother (as i never have and dying of have one..).. but, it's just from my point of view.. not his.. (actually i dunno what im talking about.. totally out of idea..)

OK! OK!! the big point i wanted to tell is, after weeks we never contact, suddenly he told me that his GF dun like our friendship.. she hates me.. wohow! its totally hurts! i never think anything negative of his GF but how dare she thinks of me like that?.. i burst into tears on that time.. i dont care.. i love him as a friend, but his GF makes me hates them.. Then, i took decision of BLOCKING them on FB,.. both of them and from now on, we'll never related. and even if i met him, i will pretend like i never knew him. NEVER.. so, meaning to say, OUR FRIENDSHIP IS GONE.. IT'S VANISHED IN JUST ONE NIGHT...

Sunday, May 15, 2011


ahaaa! Im BACK!! after recover from broken heart, n0w im started all over again..

do U believe in bless?.. well, now i do! C0z as i let go the pass, n0w i have a better one.. :)  [heyy! d0 U know what im talking about??] ITS ABOUT RELATIONSHIP! yeeahh... from my very own experience...

actually, i deactivated my FACEBOOK ACC when i was clash wif the old one.. for 2 weeks.. later as i activated, someone came over.. he message me via FB.. constantly... actually, i know him.. he's my senior in my old school. but well, i knew him as a naughty student and what worst is, he is my enemy at school! c0z he loved to teased me and leads into madness!

then, we exchange number and became friend... and getting close.. and closer... and closerrr... 0oopSss!!! STOP RIGHT THERE! hahahaaaa....!! few weeks later, we declared our relationship.. agagagagaaa! 12 days after i broke up wif d old one.. (guess im not in such pain huh?). he's also frustrated wif his ex.. nearly same situation BUT not same really! (what the heck im bluffing about?!)

there, my FAIRY TALE STARTED,,, he's full of concern of me, love and ROMANTIC! (Rrraaaww!!).. at first, i think we'll just gonna end up like other couples.. having fun, then leave.. but wif him?.. NO! it's not happening at all! in fact, day by day, he makes me fall in LOVE! (aaawwhhh)..!!

he's the only guy that really appreciates me.. there's a lot of things he has made for me.. well, he's a MOTOR MANIAC! but what makes me touched??? he put sticker of my name on his helmet and mine(he bought special for me)~i haven't put it on my head yet!

well, the red one WILL-BE-MINE.. and the white one, HIS! (i love white, he love red.. like it!).. CUTE HUH??~i mean his actions.. also, he put a sticker of my favorite theme to his plat  number! i love VALENTINO ROSSI, and his theme of THE DOCTOR .. then, my MR.RIGHT did this :

SEE??? look at the theme! gaah! this man drives me insane! i love him so much... he also put my picture on a frame and display it in his room... 

all i know, from being my close enemy years ago, now become my most loved one.. and that is a BLESS from Him.. He gave me a shit (my EX~hahahaha!) for me to learn to appreciate a gold (my new MR.RIGHT) even thought he was my worst enemy.. what lights me every time he calls me is when we talk about the pass, and compare it to now.. like him, me neither still cannot believe that i wud be in love wif him and we wud be in relationship.. just pray we may be lasts.. ^^